This Is Anfield•Yee

3 down, 1 to go

2009-11-06T09:00:00.011+08:00

As title says it all, 1 more paper to go! *relief*
Finally I could take an enough sleep yesterday, even though I wish I could online for longer.

I just really wanted to Thank God for being with me throughout my preparation for 2 big gen test (If I happens to show my frustration and stress on you, and it makes you feel bad, my apology of failing to control my temper +__________+). I believe he was not impressed the way I studies, and yes I deserve to get scold for these semester from people around me. Still by his grace, he give me strength to go through ups and downs during my 2 weeks of preparation for Freshwater Ecology and that 2 big Gen test. Most importantly, I was thought of not being able to answer GEN 3040's question after knowing that I didn't do much preparation and wanted to cry after looking at past year papers, yet he bless me by giving me the questions I could answer during the exams. I feel shame of what I've did on my preparation for test.

During this 2 weeks of preparation, I've learn a lot from my mistake, and learn to know that there is no second chance in my life. Most importantly, I've learn what it takes by "Giving all the best!" and "don't stress!". I've learn not to just focus on my own situation but focus more on HIM (If you don't understand what I mean that's ok hehe). Although I might not get a colourful result at the end, I guess I've gain something that could build up my characteristic.

Till now, I still remember the reaction that my friend shows me: "This is my last semester! Why do I screw it up??". I guess God knows that I'm a forgetful person, so he shows me this before I repeat my mistake again. Next semester is my last semester (if everything went smoothly), I don't want to screw it! Most of all, I will give it ALL THE BEST I can! This is the promise that I wanted to keep, and I will, I hope to remember the bits and pieces during this semester!

The result of putting all your best is just SWEET! =D
so to my last paper: BRING IT ON MOL2022!

This is why I don't like study Freshwater Ecology Lecture Notes

2009-10-30T07:04:00.001+08:00

Full of insects picture in BIGGER view.

Just had my first paper yesterday,
what can I say? Feeling Miserable.

I shan't give any excuse on why I feel like that, because no use to say out. It's over already.
Hopefully the marks could help me in my future.

On the other note, Joanne is back from Malaysia! Feel surprise that she called me last night and comfort me in the right time! =D
Thanks Joanne. ^_^

Off for a while

2009-10-24T04:48:00.007+08:00

FEAR = False Evidence Appears Real

*****

Anfieldyee's exam timetable:

29/10, 9.30am - BIO 3122 Freshwater Ecology

04/11, 9.30am - GEN 3062 Conservation and Ecological Genetics

05/11, 2.30pm - GEN 3040 Genomics and Molecular Genetics

09/11, 2.30pm - MOL 2022 Molecular Biology and Gene Technology

Hands on my head, running around the circle, attempt to become the panic suzz:
"AH! AH! AH! AH!" +__________+

*****

Exams is around the corner (in less than 1 week @@). So I shall not blog anything till 9 November.

See you all at plurk! (Could be undergoing facebook fast as well) Other wise, in real life or after 9 November.
Good luck and all the best for those who are sitting for exams! =)

You make me become your shining star

2009-10-09T03:04:00.005+08:00

Sometimes I will keep wondering am I an invisible woman among my friends?

I remember sometimes my parents will say to me: "Sometimes I really don't understand what is in your mind!", some friends even told me that: "I found out that you like to tell your friends' story but not you!", "you seldom talk about yourselves!". Yes I seldom talk about myself, what do I think, how do I feel etc, that's my habit. Probably that leads to the point that I tend to be quite among my friends! As in, when my friends keep discussing, I will stood there and listen.

So sometimes I do feel abit left out, and have the assumption that I'm an invisible friend.

But it got all wrong after I came here.

Recently I've posted some photos taken at Malaysia with the people that I love in facebook. The comments were very touching, unexpected and funny! But what most importantly is that they actually miss the happy moments have with me, miss having me as their company etc. One of them even confess that "It's getting quite when you're not here (in Monash Sunway)!". I can tell you, at that moment I really do feel so special! XD

I'm just a ordinary little star on the sky that works hard to shine everyday. When people saw us from the earth, they can't spot me because I look the same as every star. But just because you've found me, I've become your shining star!

I didn't know that they actually miss me that much after I come here, and I didn't realize that being miss by someone, even though it's just few second will makes you feel happy and warm. I remember everytime I called back to my mom, her reaction always makes me wanted to cry. I know that my family will miss me, but I didn't expect it's that high level! @@

Looks like the choice I've made to come to Melbourne does pay up the price! Muahaha XD

Thanks for those who thinks about me, even though just a few seconds! Especially Edi whom recently posted an entry that he miss my presence! ^^

朋友一生一起走

2009-10-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

还记得上个星期五跟 Sheryl 他们唱K点到这首歌的时候, 大家都轰轰烈烈的唱在一起, 突然间觉得拥有那一份的感觉真难得.

虽说友情是我们生活中的调剂品, 虽然妈妈说过朋友也会陷害朋友, 虽说友情不能和亲情来做比较, 但生活上就是不能缺少朋友.朋友就是一生一起走, 一起面对困难现实, 一起欢笑一起悲伤.

我们可以跟全世界的人做朋友, 但就是因为缘分让我们只能跟他人做很好的朋友! 这一点是我每次当我不能跟心目中的人物做朋友的时候, 给予最佳的安慰, 也让我更加明白缘分难得, 让我更懂得珍惜与看重友情的可贵.

友情, 就是在你无论什么样的情况下, 都会陪伴你左右的人. 虽然我不善于当聆听者, 但我可以当你生活上的小丑, 逗你开心, 好让你有动力面对一切挫折^^

English Version

This is the song I sang with Sheryl and her friends during karaoke. The moments where everyone sing together is just so nice! It's like, a things that you couldn't own easily.

I still remember that mom told me how friends could use us for their own purpose, but there's undeniable that we need friends. Friends are with us, happily sad together, face the problems together.

We could make friends with the entire world of people, it's just that fate separates us. I always keep this word in my mind, when I failed to make good friends with a particular person that I admire.Sounds pity but it makes me feel more appreciate and how important having friends by fate. Fate does not come easily.

Friends does not abandoned you in any situation. I may not become your good listener, but I could be your clown and make you smile, to provide a driving force that makes you face the problem strongly^^

I'm not a lulu

2009-10-03T22:54:00.001+08:00

Everything, by Lifehouse

2009-09-27T19:02:00.008+08:00

The song that I fall in love during OCF's E-night.
I keep listening almost the whole day.

Thank you for the song, I really like it!

Lyrics:

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Message Just for you

Keep Pushing Myself Forward

2009-09-23T19:59:00.004+08:00

"I wanted to keep pushing myself forward, so that I could improve in any areas of my life!"

This is the words I keep telling myself not to get proud easily if I've achieve something.
Since we are ought to aim a bigger picture, why not keep pushing yourself to move forward?
Encouraging is a good thing, but if we get too offended, it won't help us improving, especially lazy people like me thinks that it's more than enough to achieve such level and don't plan to move forward.
Yes I can choose not to make myself suffer, but reality world does not allowed me to do so.

Time to face reality already, Anfieldyee!

Chinese Version

"我要不停的鞭打自己, 才能够更上一层楼!"

这句是我差不多的每一天对自己说的话. 我不想因为只是成功做出某样小东西而感到很自豪.
反正我们应该朝着更大的梦想/目标前进, 不是么?
虽然说自我鼓励没错, 但如果过于自豪, 再怎样的自我鼓励也没用. 因为感到自豪, 觉得自己做了平时自己做不出来的东西, 觉得自己已经pass某种程度了, 所以不打算前进.
我可以选择不想刁难自己, 但现实生活可不允许我这么做.

安儿啊~~是时候该面对现实了吧?!

You won't get a peaceful heart if you don't try

2009-09-20T21:13:00.003+08:00

Friend: Why didn't you participate the blogger awards?

Me: Oh...because I couldn't find any reason why I wanted to participate! So I choose not to apply for it.

Friend: Oh I see... well, it's ok that you don't want to do things that you don't want to do.

Above conversation is me and my friend had on MSN. He (and other friend) very supportive on what I've blog, and he said that he's looking forward to see me getting the award.

Even though I told him that actually I'm not interested in whether my blog is interesting enough to get the award, when it comes to questioning myself, I'm struggled to answer that.

Do I really don't mind?

When comes to competition, in terms of any sort of area, I always tell people that I don't mind and I don't care whether I got participate even though I'm eligible or I've the chance, but do I actually? Well, who doesn't want the feeling of success? Especially when you put lots of efforts on it. Just like blog, when you feel that you can blog well or you got the chance, why not?

Everyone hates the feeling of failure, so do I, but I can't stand myself always run away from my problem. Yesterday I've a chat with one of my friend. She told us that she wants to be success in her life, just like what her friends did. All I told her is "Sometimes, being ordinary is the best thing!", like as if tell her not to suffer herself so much. What she replied me: "Well, if you come out and work, you will understand!" really strikes me. It's just like a message to me that: So what if I fail to do it at the end? So what if I need to work even harder? At least I've tried when I got the chance!

I know that chance ain't come so easily. When we are young, we should fight for our future. Even though we might fail at the end, at least we've tried. I don't understand why as a humans we wanted to try, but if we don't try, we would never get a peaceful heart.

Probably regrets is one of our worse enemy in our life. Of course, I don't like the feeling of regret, and I must choose to fight for my goal. I know I've the chance, so why not?

I don't know whether I've got the chance to participate blog awards anymore, unless I wrote in chinese. But I know, deep inside my heart, if I've the chance, I will fight for it.

Thank you my friends, for allowing me have chance to get the message. :)

Fly like an eagle

2009-09-16T17:44:00.006+08:00

"You can do everything! You can fly like an eagle!"

This is the words where I heard at Shine Conference, which is 3 days ago. Whether I can choose not to believe what that speaker told us or not, it's a true sentence.

Jane told me what she had learned from UP movie. The part that when the old man wanted to make the house fly again in order to rescue the kid and bird but the house was too heavy to fly again, it throws everything out of the house. And of course, it causes the house float on the air again, just like an eagle flies on the sky. Just like if we wanted to chase our dream/aims, we must throw all the burdens esp scare, afraid etc, so that we could fly like an eagle, to persuade our dreams.

Actually we really are an eagle, just that the weight of burdens cause us think that we're just a sparrow.
The only thing to reduce our burdens' weight is definitely depends on us.

House, by 15Malaysia

2009-09-15T17:25:00.003+08:00

I've just watch this video, knowing it from my internet friends. I'm so applause by what Linus Chung did. It's so true and reflects the current society - poor always gets bad while rich always get good.
(At this point I realize how important we must hope for better and fight for it, so that we shan't get treated badly)

The part where the teacher and students tease Rama's artwork caught my attention, it brings me back my standard one memory.

×××××

Even though my friends praise me how talented I am in drawing, I never labeled myself as having talent in drawing.
The memory still fresh, till now. When I was at primary one, I draw an ugly + simple looking house (I think is house, can't remember, but I know that my art teacher doesn't like it) and present it to my art teacher. The teacher looked at my drawing and teased in front of my class with my drawing held high so that everyone could see my drawing,
and of course with this word:

"I don't want to see this kind of drawing anymore, understand?"

I remember how humiliated I was at that time. I remember that I rush to my mom and begged her to send me to art class after that. I remember I kept promising myself must draw a better picture so that everyone could say "WOW!". And life moves on.

Now when I look back, I can't hide but give a big grin on my face. I'm proud of what I can do. I'm intend not to forget this pieces of memory, because it could be my inspiration to move on to my aims.

I guess what God wants me to learn based on my past life is that: If people feel you are hopeless, doesn't mean you really have no chance to make your dreams come true! What's really important that you've try your very best. Like everyone says, everyone has their own talent. Who knows that the process that you persuade your dreams, which at the end does not come true, applies to your another future dream? Or maybe, who knows that your actual strength is not that low? Actually you're REALLY GOOD!.....

"Anfieldyee, don't look down on yourself. You're NOT that bad actually!"

I wanted to keep these in my mind, when I wanted to give up.

The world of purple

2009-09-14T22:22:00.008+08:00

Maybe purple trend has conquered all over the world.
In Melbourne, whenever I walk down the street, chatting with people, seeing any shops,
definitely there will be purple colour inside. It's just like, the whole wide world is CRAZY about purple now!
When I was at Malaysia, not many of my friends crazy about purple excepts crazygirl.
I remember after I entered University, suddenly there are so many purple fans pop in front of me.
Whenever I saw them crazy about purple, it reminds me of how crazygirl crazy about purple.
Probably it's sign of God wants me to feel Crazygirl will always besides me, spiritually, even though we don't meet up that often.
I wonder does she has any current friends fanatic about red colour or not? :P

Now me and her is so far apart away, she's at north while I'm at south.

You take care at UK k?
I will definitely miss you so much.

In this day 090909, I'm fighting with a monster

2009-09-09T09:16:00.010+08:00

Today is 090909,
Nothing much I can do today, because I've one more monster left for me to fight!
Can't have fun today, because this monster is too hard for me to kill!
Can't have enough sleep recently, because these monsters kill my bed time!
Spend too much money for my food, because spend too much time dealing with these monsters!

Really looking forward tomorrow comes to end, So that I can have some rest! And of course, have some time to kill the next monster and updating my bloggieeeeee....!
(I've so many things keep appearing in my mind, yet I spend most of the time fighting with this monster!)

GO GO ANFIELDYEE!!!!!

The song that I keep listen no matter how long I've been hearing this song for so many times!

When I know how to play piano, I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY THIS SONG!

PS: The monsters I'm referring to is Assignment.

围巾的温暖

2009-09-02T12:36:00.011+08:00

从没想过, 围巾可以是一份很好的礼物.

很多次我看到别人为了将要出国深造的人而编制围巾或者是毛衣的时候, 觉得是因为冬天时不用花钱去买多一条围巾而动手编制给他人, 又有诚意又独特. 对我来说, 就是一份礼物, 要他人时时刻刻记得你, 即使你不在身边.

但, 我错了.

如果你遇到多么需要围巾来取暖的时候, 而刚好有人借/送给你围巾时, 那份围巾的温暖的是无比的high. 若一份礼物能够让你感到温暖, 是不是能够感受到他人对你的呵护, 就像"家就是温暖"的感觉一样呢? XD
一份能够让你感受被人关心的礼物, 对我而言是一份很棒的礼物.

我想, 我已经知道要送社么礼物给那些以后要出国读书/深造的朋友了! ^^V

这几天因为把自己的围巾遗漏在朋友车上而没围巾穿, 感谢Sheryl借她的围巾给我. ^^

PS: 我怎么可以把妈妈给我的围巾弄丢捏? T_______________T

Happy 52th Merdeka!!

2009-08-31T21:40:00.008+08:00

This is the first time Anfieldyee celebrates Hari Merdeka in foreign country.

HAPPY 52TH MERDEKA, MALAYSIA!!

Me pet wearing baju kurung on Merdeka day! ^^

MERDEKA! MERDEKA!

Greet Happy Merdeka to my pet's friend, HL's Pet. :)

I WANT ALLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!! A_A

*Pet Society is celebrating Merdeka with us, that's why the shops are very "Malaysia".
HOW NICE OF YOU PET SOCIETY!!!!! *MUAXXXXX*

Week 6 - 8 is the killer weeks!

2009-08-30T10:55:00.010+08:00

The due dates:

Week 6
GEN 3040 Problem set question - worth 10%
GEN 3062 presentation - worth 5%

Week 7
BIO 3122 Proposal - worth 5%

Week 8
GEN 3040 Report 1 - worth 15% (Initially due at week 7, but got extended)
GEN 3040 Essay - worth 12.5%
MOL 2022 Mid-term test - worth 10%

AH! AH! AH! +___________+

Spring Is Coming!

2009-08-29T08:50:00.009+08:00

Cold season is going to leave us soon~~

You need to work harder

2009-08-26T09:56:00.015+08:00

Yesterday I went to listen the Genetics Honour talk, and learn one thing from a senior:

"Honours is basically full-time research, working non-stop! If you wanted to do Honours, there is lot's of thesis to write, you need passion! You need to work a lot, work harder!"

I always thought that I'm not that lucky person, and always thought that only people with brain get to do honours. I afraid of facing failure, I guess that holds me back.

But when they said "You need to work harder!", with realize that I've not been working harder for most of my uni life, how am I going to survive if I happens to do Honours?

I know I can face the failure, because Liverpool can face the failure, why can't I?
I know I can do it! "He" will be besides me!

Even though everything seems impossible, it's well worth trying.
Because there is no second chance.

Hopefully I will always keep this in my mind.

p/s: As I was typing this post, I sense that people who chase their dreams are the brave one. They don't scare of the feelings of failure. Thank you God, for letting me able to sense the message you want to give me. ^^

给你们的一封信

2009-08-25T00:00:00.005+08:00

至亲爱的蚂蚁们,

一年四个月前, 我曾经闹着要离开蚂蚁,
当时的我只是一时冲动之下而做出这样的决定, 幸好得到某人的开导, 我才脸皮厚的回来蚂蚁.

依稀记得自己还是新生的时候, 自己多么期待以及羡慕蚂蚁有属于自己的窝.
然而现在的我, 想在这日子里选择离开蚂蚁.

这几天不停的思考关于离开蚂蚁这个决定. 我害怕这个决定是错的, 我害怕我的感应是错的, 我害怕总有一天我会后悔的, 所以一直以来都不敢面对这个决定.
渐渐的，我发决我越是逃避, 我越是感到累了, 我不想要这样啊~

首先我想跟孙康老大说声谢谢. 谢谢你给我这个机会, 让我成为蚂蚁成员. 能够呆在蚂蚁这么久, 是我的荣幸. 我感谢上帝让我认识了蚂蚁, 让我学会好多意想不到的事情. 无论是关于友情, 部落格浏览, 加强写华语还是成长, 要不是没有蚂蚁, 就不会有今天的我. 此刻, 我真的很感激在单纯的自己的时刻认识到蚂蚁 (讲到我现在好像不单纯酱orz)
感谢那些当我处于低迷状态的我, 给我适当的留言. 原来, 短短几句话, 足以让我心情能够过好一点.
感谢那些愿意即使处于忙碌的时刻, 愿意来我的部落格看看我. 抱歉我没时常拜访你们.
感谢蚂蚁伙伴们愿意分享自己生活的点点滴滴, 好让我可以从部落格中学习好多东西.

若我真的有机会, 我也想呆在蚂蚁在一起更久呢? 嘿嘿

虽然很不舍得, 毕竟这里是我第一次写部落格的时候收到这么多留言, 也曾经是弯弯姐姐拜访过的部落格, 也曾经是我的骄傲, 但却不能说服自己为什么不能离开.
有些原因是不方便在这里跟你们说, 但绝对没跟针对蚂蚁的什么而作出离开的决定有关.

很开心能够在这里有机会认识到好多蚂蚁, 我想这是我离开后得到最大的福气.
我还是会回来探望大家的, 毕竟自己曾是蚂蚁一分子, 这里有我关心的人, 但会以蚂蚁迷的身份来探望大家.
就好像在足球场上, 你们是鼎鼎大名的球队, 而我是无时无刻会为你们打气的球迷.

虽然现在处于离大家都很遥远的地方, 但若有缘分, 我们一定会再见面! 这是我对你们的承诺. ^^

最后, 我祝福蚂蚁步步高升, 越来越精彩!
而我的部落格人生, 将会由这里起点.

祝福大家.
安儿上

The day where I lost my voice

2009-08-15T16:48:00.013+08:00

Being disappear for a while, it's time for me to show up.
You might be wondering where the heck am I taking so long to show up myself before I wrote this post. (Asking to myself)
I didn't mean to disappear, really...

Because, I was sick, AGAIN!

Yes, I was sick for the second time in Melbourne! But it is not as bad as last time, where I experienced lack of energy to do something else. The difference is I lost my voice this time for 2 days. YES! You can imagine that I'd to post all sort of funny action for that 2 days, AGAIN!

When my friends knew that I've lost my voice, all they told me is: "Then I can talk bad thing about you!!!", even for the person who has the kind look. Why??? Do I look like very easily being bully??

Thank God that I've my voice back after 2 days! Not like before, where it takes 1 week for me to recover. It seems that my immune system is getting stronger and stronger! Muahaha!

During that period of time, I've been thinking a lot, answers were kept coming out. So I guess I've myself calm down finally.

At 9 August, where I still haven't had my voice come back, I went to North Melbourne for Chocolate festival. It was invited by my friends. As a chocolate fans, obviously I'm DESPERATE to go even though I've been told not to eat chocolates~ XD

However, that does not stop me trying little piece (Yaya I can't control my temptation). I ended up eating lots of pieces of chocolate. BUT, my voice came back the next day, and it becomes better and better! It seems that it's nothing wrong to eat good quality chocolate when you're sick!

Or rather, my immune system is really very strong...XD

Here are the photos taken on that day, with my new hand phone (Finally, I've a camera hp! TwT). Enjoy:

Cool chocolate advertisement on the car

They are MINE!! ALL MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cute chocolate cat

KOKO

Chocolate in white-stone form

Chocolate of the day

Design for the kids?

Another chocolate of the day

The last 5 pictures are made out of real chocolate. Believe it not!

该不该坚持?

2009-08-12T15:44:00.006+08:00

"为什么我对 Environmental Science 比较有兴趣? " 这样的问题围绕着我好久.

依稀记得我爱上 Environmental Science 的时候是第一次上了关于它的堂课. 当时还不知道要专什么的我冒冒然的跑去拿 Env 科目. 教授在讲解的那一刻我依然还记得很清晰. 我记得当时我被里面的内容吸引, 眼前一亮, 心里对着自己说: "这就是我想要读的科目啦!!"

我给不到理由为什么我爱上Env, 这应该是纯真性的喜欢吧? 虽然我有"因为我脑袋迟钝 (因为通常科学头脑要转得很厉害嘛)" 的理由而可以选择不读Env, 但我应该在意这小不点的理由而选择不读吗?

当朋友听到我将来想专什么的时候, 就说: "har? Env? 那不是很无聊咯? ", "比起Env, 我宁愿读 *这个这个*", 我会怀疑自己是不是怪胎 (Orz), 或者是我值得读 *这个那个*. 在班上, 专门这行业的人寥寥无几, 更何况Env都是那些洋人喜欢读. 对我们亚洲人来说, 医学IT工程师商业Law是我们的首选. 在马来西亚, Env的工作机会没那么多, 算是冷门的科系吧?

其实我到可以不用管身边的人说什么, 自己喜欢自己觉得活得很自在已经好了.

到现在自己也不太明白兴趣真正的定义在那里. 是否因为它很有趣呢? 还是因为你在某某科目考到很好成绩, 所以可以鼓励你学关于它更多东西呢? 还是像我的case那样, 没有理由的爱上它呢? 还是自己觉得ok的话, 读这些也无所谓啦?

能够找到自己的兴趣在那里固然重要, 但如果自己读不来的话, 应该放弃还是继续寻找问题在那里呢?

其实自己写这篇文章纯真是因为自己发现已经慢慢开始失去原有的兴趣了. 学姐说可能我累了, 叫我不要想太多, 我倒是觉得挫折夺走了我的兴趣吧? 自己不是出身在于科学康家, 自己也没想过长大以后会读科学 (因为我曾经讨厌科学). 有这样的心情是难免的.

现在我把希望托在他的身上. 我选择相信他是因为我知道我当时对待Env的心情不是偶然, 不是心理作用. 我相信你要我走路到这个地步一定有你的计划.

让我知道你是否要我走这样的路程, 可以吗?

Exhausted

2009-07-30T23:09:00.006+08:00

So much things to care, so much things to worry,
No matter where I go, where am I, I'm still the weak girl you met 6 months ago: Afraid to face everything, afraid to take a step forward...

I'm exhausted.

Stockdale Memories

2009-07-15T13:12:00.013+08:00

Tuesday 14 July 2009, 4pm, Cloudy

Standing in front of Faculty Science building

After turning left, building 23 is right in front of me

Walk into the building 23

and came out! Walked straight again...

I saw car park

the road that leads me to Stockdale

Looks like it's a Long journey to go

It's long!

Very very long...

Manage to reach Stockdale!

Stockdale

Walk and walk

The fruit that I fall in love for the first time I met

And finally, get to reach their house

I stood in front of their door, knowing that they are going to flight soon in just couple of hours.
The only place where I could visit + hang out when I've nothing to do in Uni,
The place where we used to discuss Genetics and Ecology,
The place where 3 friends that used to be same batch as me stays here,
The place where we got a surprise birthday party for someone,

Now becomes my memory.

Farewell, Hooi Ling, Yvonne and Roy!
Hopefully, someday, any day, we could meet each other again in Malaysia.

I wish you all the best in your future. Take care. :)

Friends that could see through you

2009-07-09T12:43:00.015+08:00

Yesterday I had breakfast/lunch with Denise, who came to Melbourne from Adelaide for holiday.
One thing I love chatting this kind of friend is you do not need to be some one else. It's you. And most of these kind of friends I met from High School.

Of course, I've wonderful time chatting with Denise,
especially when she mentioned this part:

Denise: "You look sad."
Me: "Am I?"
Denise: "You look like you're homesick!"
Me: "Oh. I was sick, that's why I look sad to you isn't it? Hahaha."

My first reaction was that Denise think too much. After a while of thinking-to-much session, it only makes me realize how I feel. (I know my reaction very slow. |||)
Yea. I guess she's right! Something is really bothering me.

Well, that thing is coming, I'm sick and something bothers me, how could I maintain a good mood?
Maybe it's holiday, maybe holiday we tend to think too much, maybe I've think too much, maybe my time of being down is coming, maybe.

But I'm please to have friends like Denise. They could see through you no matter how much effort you tried to hide from them, just like your family.
Because they care about you. That's why they could notice tiny unusual things happen on you.

Just a simple yet sincere regards could make your day, some one told me that. It's true.

Thanks for the treat Denise, it's suppose me to treat you.
Am I really glad to see you here. Really.

I miss my Malaysia's Friends. Every single one of them...and my Family

Swine Flu PLEASE Go Away!!

2009-07-06T23:17:00.012+08:00

I live in everyday with full of worry and horror.
If you imagine yourselves living in a place which have 1600++ cases of swine flu plus 7 confirmed death, as well as traveling one place to another non-stop, you might understand how I feel.

As you may or may not know, yes I'm sick.
Started coughing at Wednesday, shivering like nobody business at Thursday, getting better at Friday, feel glad that I got the energy to do things at Saturday, but fall sick again at Sunday. WTH!

Don't worry I'm fine now, even though I'm still coughing like mad.

PL don't want to meet me because she wants to go back to Malaysia; Siaowoman canceled her flight to Melbourne this holiday because of swine flu; The first and ever time I'd very concern about my sick like shite; I'm afraid to call back home because if my mom founds out that I'm coughing, she will be worrying alot of things.

Swine flu PLEASEEEEEEE get out of my life! You not only ruin all my plans, you made me feel horror every, especially I need to travel down 20km away from where I stayed if neccessary!!