3 down, 1 to go

As title says it all, 1 more paper to go! *relief*
Finally I could take an enough sleep yesterday, even though I wish I could online for longer.

I just really wanted to Thank God for being with me throughout my preparation for 2 big gen test (If I happens to show my frustration and stress on you, and it makes you feel bad, my apology of failing to control my temper +__________+). I believe he was not impressed the way I studies, and yes I deserve to get scold for these semester from people around me. Still by his grace, he give me strength to go through ups and downs during my 2 weeks of preparation for Freshwater Ecology and that 2 big Gen test. Most importantly, I was thought of not being able to answer GEN 3040's question after knowing that I didn't do much preparation and wanted to cry after looking at past year papers, yet he bless me by giving me the questions I could answer during the exams. I feel shame of what I've did on my preparation for test.

During this 2 weeks of preparation, I've learn a lot from my mistake, and learn to know that there is no second chance in my life. Most importantly, I've learn what it takes by "Giving all the best!" and "don't stress!". I've learn not to just focus on my own situation but focus more on HIM (If you don't understand what I mean that's ok hehe). Although I might not get a colourful result at the end, I guess I've gain something that could build up my characteristic.

Till now, I still remember the reaction that my friend shows me: "This is my last semester! Why do I screw it up??". I guess God knows that I'm a forgetful person, so he shows me this before I repeat my mistake again. Next semester is my last semester (if everything went smoothly), I don't want to screw it! Most of all, I will give it ALL THE BEST I can! This is the promise that I wanted to keep, and I will, I hope to remember the bits and pieces during this semester!

The result of putting all your best is just SWEET! =D
so to my last paper: BRING IT ON MOL2022!

This is why I don't like study Freshwater Ecology Lecture Notes

Full of insects picture in BIGGER view.

Just had my first paper yesterday,
what can I say? Feeling Miserable.

I shan't give any excuse on why I feel like that, because no use to say out. It's over already.
Hopefully the marks could help me in my future.

On the other note, Joanne is back from Malaysia! Feel surprise that she called me last night and comfort me in the right time! =D
Thanks Joanne. ^_^

Off for a while

FEAR = False Evidence Appears Real

*****

Anfieldyee's exam timetable:

29/10, 9.30am - BIO 3122 Freshwater Ecology

04/11, 9.30am - GEN 3062 Conservation and Ecological Genetics

05/11, 2.30pm - GEN 3040 Genomics and Molecular Genetics

09/11, 2.30pm - MOL 2022 Molecular Biology and Gene Technology

Hands on my head, running around the circle, attempt to become the panic suzz:
"AH! AH! AH! AH!" +__________+

*****

Exams is around the corner (in less than 1 week @@). So I shall not blog anything till 9 November.

See you all at plurk! (Could be undergoing facebook fast as well) Other wise, in real life or after 9 November.
Good luck and all the best for those who are sitting for exams! =)

You make me become your shining star

Sometimes I will keep wondering am I an invisible woman among my friends?

I remember sometimes my parents will say to me: "Sometimes I really don't understand what is in your mind!", some friends even told me that: "I found out that you like to tell your friends' story but not you!", "you seldom talk about yourselves!". Yes I seldom talk about myself, what do I think, how do I feel etc, that's my habit. Probably that leads to the point that I tend to be quite among my friends! As in, when my friends keep discussing, I will stood there and listen.

So sometimes I do feel abit left out, and have the assumption that I'm an invisible friend.

But it got all wrong after I came here.

Recently I've posted some photos taken at Malaysia with the people that I love in facebook. The comments were very touching, unexpected and funny! But what most importantly is that they actually miss the happy moments have with me, miss having me as their company etc. One of them even confess that "It's getting quite when you're not here (in  Monash Sunway)!". I can tell you, at that moment I really do feel so special! XD

I'm just a ordinary little star on the sky that works hard to shine everyday. When people saw us from the earth, they can't spot me because I look the same as every star. But just because you've found me, I've become your shining star!

I didn't know that they actually miss me that much after I come here, and I didn't realize that being miss by someone, even though it's just few second will makes you feel happy and warm. I remember everytime I called back to my mom, her reaction always makes me wanted to cry. I know that my family will miss me, but I didn't expect it's that high level! @@

Looks like the choice I've made to come to Melbourne does pay up the price! Muahaha XD

Thanks for those who thinks about me, even though just a few seconds! Especially Edi whom recently posted an entry that he miss my presence! ^^

朋友一生一起走

还记得上个星期五跟 Sheryl 他们唱K点到这首歌的时候, 大家都轰轰烈烈的唱在一起, 突然间觉得拥有那一份的感觉真难得.

虽说友情是我们生活中的调剂品, 虽然妈妈说过朋友也会陷害朋友, 虽说友情不能和亲情来做比较, 但生活上就是不能缺少朋友.朋友就是一生一起走, 一起面对困难现实, 一起欢笑一起悲伤.

我们可以跟全世界的人做朋友, 但就是因为缘分让我们只能跟他人做很好的朋友! 这一点是我每次当我不能跟心目中的人物做朋友的时候, 给予最佳的安慰, 也让我更加明白缘分难得, 让我更懂得珍惜与看重友情的可贵.

友情, 就是在你无论什么样的情况下, 都会陪伴你左右的人. 虽然我不善于当聆听者, 但我可以当你生活上的小丑, 逗你开心, 好让你有动力面对一切挫折^^


English Version

This is the song I sang with Sheryl and her friends during karaoke. The moments where everyone sing together is just so nice! It's like, a things that you couldn't own easily.

I still remember that mom told me how friends could use us for their own purpose, but there's undeniable that we need friends. Friends are with us, happily sad together, face the problems together.

We could make friends with the entire world of people, it's just that fate separates us. I always keep this word in my mind, when I failed to make good friends with a particular person that I admire.Sounds pity but it makes me feel more appreciate and how important having friends by fate. Fate does not come easily.

Friends does not abandoned you in any situation. I may not become your good listener, but I could be your clown and make you smile, to provide a driving force that makes you face the problem strongly^^

I'm not a lulu

Everything, by Lifehouse

The song that I fall in love during OCF's E-night.
I keep listening almost the whole day.

Thank you for the song, I really like it!

Lyrics:

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Message Just for you

Keep Pushing Myself Forward

"I wanted to keep pushing myself forward, so that I could improve in any areas of my life!"

This is the words I keep telling myself not to get proud easily if I've achieve something.
Since we are ought to aim a bigger picture, why not keep pushing yourself to move forward?
Encouraging is a good thing, but if we get too offended, it won't help us improving, especially lazy people like me thinks that it's more than enough to achieve such level and don't plan to move forward.
Yes I can choose not to make myself suffer, but reality world does not allowed me to do so.

Time to face reality already, Anfieldyee!


Chinese Version

"我要不停的鞭打自己, 才能够更上一层楼!"

这句是我差不多的每一天对自己说的话. 我不想因为只是成功做出某样小东西而感到很自豪.
反正我们应该朝着更大的梦想/目标前进, 不是么?
虽然说自我鼓励没错, 但如果过于自豪, 再怎样的自我鼓励也没用. 因为感到自豪, 觉得自己做了平时自己做不出来的东西, 觉得自己已经pass某种程度了, 所以不打算前进.
我可以选择不想刁难自己, 但现实生活可不允许我这么做.

安儿啊~~是时候该面对现实了吧?!

You won't get a peaceful heart if you don't try

Friend: Why didn't you participate the blogger awards?


 Me: Oh...because I couldn't find any reason why I wanted to participate! So I choose not to apply for it.

Friend: Oh I see... well, it's ok that you don't want to do things that you don't want to do.

Above conversation is me and my friend had on MSN. He (and other friend) very supportive on what I've blog, and he said that he's looking forward to see me getting the award.

Even though I told him that actually I'm not interested in whether my blog is interesting enough to get the award, when it comes to questioning myself, I'm struggled to answer that.

Do I really don't mind?

When comes to competition, in terms of any sort of area, I always tell people that I don't mind and I don't care whether I got participate even though I'm eligible or I've the chance, but do I actually? Well, who doesn't want the feeling of success? Especially when you put lots of efforts on it. Just like blog, when you feel that you can blog well or you got the chance, why not?

Everyone hates the feeling of failure, so do I, but I can't stand myself always run away from my problem. Yesterday I've a chat with one of my friend. She told us that she wants to be success in her life, just like what her friends did. All I told her is "Sometimes, being ordinary is the best thing!", like as if tell her not to suffer herself so much. What she replied me: "Well, if you come out and work, you will understand!" really strikes me. It's just like a message to me that: So what if I fail to do it at the end? So what if I need to work even harder? At least I've tried when I got the chance!

I know that chance ain't come so easily. When we are young, we should fight for our future. Even though we might fail at the end, at least we've tried. I don't understand why as a humans we wanted to try, but if we don't try, we would never get a peaceful heart.

Probably regrets is one of our worse enemy in our life. Of course, I don't like the feeling of regret, and I must choose to fight for my goal. I know I've the chance, so why not?

I don't know whether I've got the chance to participate blog awards anymore, unless I wrote in chinese. But I know, deep inside my heart, if I've the chance, I will fight for it.

Thank you my friends, for allowing me have chance to get the message. :)